I put my phone down With a frantic haste, Seeing a notification pop up, Left my mouth with a bitter taste. One name that flashed on the screen Took me back to the year I was nineteen Overcoming abandonment and fears, How after all these years Have my thought occurred to you? To share with me, this time, do you have anything new? Or is it like before Everytime your life falls apart, And crumbles to ground, To my bare skinny arms You come rushing down? Longing to meet Hoping to rekindle from the ashes, The flames that once ran passionately through my veins? If I remember correctly, You always believed in astrology, stars, planets and conjunctions ruling, guiding and binding our destinations, our fate To me, that is what you said. Debated with me, multiple times that we have little to no control over the stride of life. Or was it for you, just another excuse A plan for rescue, for when things go south something to put the blame on for your actions to be justified, As to take the responsibility, you were so terrified? Giving me false hope leaving me wanting more You evoke in me a thirst you do not care, quench My lips after tasting purest honey, How can it be fooled with some sugary confectionery. You pull me close just to stab my heart, Scars of those wounds. I still struggle to hide.  In this, you took part, equally Then am I the only one unholy? Thinking about us, I have shattered multiple times going through it again will just break my spine. Look at us, here we are again, staring at that familiar face Feeling of the old, timeless gaze Only this time through a virtual screen. With hundreds and hundreds, Of miles in between.  When odds favoured us, And time was on our side, Had you not denied. How much is destiny to be blamed? Is it the stars, that needs to be shamed? for the choices we didn't make? For the steps we didn't take? Ten years have passed, our desires were hushed, now move on, And just like you, I am with a child too I belong to another man. Getting back with you, is not my plan. In this world I've created I am living just fine Now too many lives  Are entangled with mine. When they ask me, If I have any regrets? I hear the echoes of your name, Like a song on rewind Playing unceasingly, on an old portable cassette, But don't you worry No mistakes as such, will be made in a hurry. I shall swallow my tongue before I blurt out your name and put you to shame. With a posed smile I leave them with one answer, "What you feel is not a crime, And when certain about a person, Perhaps, never waste your time. If it is destined, if it is fated, The stars will shine some light."